as most of us here would know, today is the release of results for the ntu brothers and sisters. ytd night my social media timelines were flooded with my friend’s rantings about how they have this ominous feeling, how their hearts are racing, how they wish their cgpa can maintain etc. and those negative thoughts started to consume me slowly.

the past sem was probably my worst sem ever. worst in the sense that i felt stressed out all the time. all my mods were coursework based, 2 of which are performance based i.e. have to spend a lot of time practising and rehearsing. one other core mod is a mod that i really dislike because it’s so technical and i failed all my quizzes, and i did super badly for all the assignments as well. on top of that i had to prepare for HOCC (trainings end at 2ish 3am usually) and also for my dance concert as well, which made all coursework based mods sound like a terrible idea. crazy doesn’t even begin to describe the sem. oh and not forgetting my shingles outbreak that was caused by stress, and i was given 2 weeks mc.

i was so consumed by everything, everything other than God.

so last night shortly before results released, as i’ve shared with my lg, i was just asking God that when the world is worrying away, what does it truly mean to trust in the Lord. and i want Him to teach me that. what does it mean to “be still and know that i am God”. i can vividly rmb how God so graciously put me in linguistics (with CCD for A lvl h2 subjects) and brought me thru every sem (i never had to retake any mods even though i fail tests like breathing air). and even though my carnal nature is thinking “what if”, God is asking me “have i ever let you down?” at the moment i told God that no matter what happens, above it all i want to rmb who He is, that He is sovereign still.

God blessed me with a cgpa increase of 0.1, which is pretty much beyond my wildest imagination. but brothers and sisters, my point here isn’t “yay my cgpa improved, praise God!” (but yes praise God still hahaha), my point is that in an environment where everyone is so academic-driven and people start freaking out when their cgpa slip, rmbring who we are in God is so, so, so important. we must know that grades do not, and will not ever define us, even when the world tells us that without good grades we are doomed. no we are not, because our faith is in our God, our God who is able, who can do the impossible, who loves us unconditionally, and He will not let our feet slip.

trust me, for a third class honours student to say the above, it really has to come from God.

hahaha so sorry for the lengthy post, but i really feel the spirit stirring so strongly within me i just can’t contain it! have a blessed day ahead everyone, and happy weekends! 😀


Day 2 and Day 3.

i want to give thanks for:

Day 2.
– nice colleagues
– able to complete tasks despite being thrown one at the last minute

Day 3.
– had this rare opportunity to tag along for an interview with one of the best journalists in the world, Fareed Zakaria

Day 1.

Today I want to give thanks for:

– meeting shiying at the bartley bus stop, realised we both work in Mediacorp, so she brought me to Mediacorp i.e. i wasn’t lost on my first day!
– realised xiangs works in the same dept as meeeee. and out of so many depts in CNA, this has to be from God 😀
– lovely friends who texted me and prayed for me for my first day gdll! :’)
– a nice mentor, charles, who brought me for an interview on my first day at work and didn’t ask me do saigang like make him coffee lololol
– nice fellow interns 😀

really felt God’s presence with me throughout, really felt so safe and at peace ^^ love You!

Not great, but it is enough.

Because God really deserves this post.

Thank You, for bringing me through once again even though I am anything but deserving. I am guilty of being faithless, but You my Lord delivered me just like You have promised.

I have nothing to say but Thank You.

It is not great, but it is enough for me. I am not great, but You tell me that I am enough for You.


I’m not dead.

Oh hey. I’m still alive.

This is actually a belated post but anyway.

Few nights back I decided to not use the com and just lie in the dark with my mum and chatted with her. And it’s amazing how her life now revolves so much around the church, and it’s such a privilege to be with her on this walk. Never thought this day would come to pass and I’m so thankful that You made the seemingly impossible possible.

On another note. Have started choreographing the junior’s item for JDC and boy, this is some tough shit. So thankful that the boy shares my love for dance and can help me along. Honestly one of the best feelings in this world is to share the same passion as the one you love.

13 Jan isn’t coming soon enough. Miss you.

Turning 20.

So… I’m finally 20.

Feels rather surreal, it’s like, oh okay so it’s the big two.

Caught a movie and had dinner at Fukuichi with Weide on the actual day itself, and right now I’m typing this at my uncle’s house. Gathered my extended family members here for a cosy gathering – something that we haven’t done in ages and I thank God that all of them came 🙂 Nothing fancy, just some finger food but it made me happy to see everyone coming tgt because they love me. Thank You Jesus 😀

Happy holidays, everyone! ^^


Paper at 5pm but I needed to do some thanksgiving before going for my paper hahaha.

Big thank you to my LG members for helping me to find an English-Chinese dictionary! Thank you so much guys, for the trouble and all. Big props to Sherms who really went around asking her friends :’) GDLL.

Thank You Daddy for blessing me with an imba dictionary that I purchased from Yunnan bookstore. It was all wrapped up so I couldn’t check the contents but thank You for Your providence it’s a really good dictionary just what I need!

Received a small thanksgiving note from Pooiyee as well, although I really did nothing except offer a small space in my room which is no trouble at all. And for helping me to buy lunch too yayz!

And the shepherd for koping wangwang for me HAHAHA.

Meeting my dear brothers Vincent and Weiyeat for supper tonight after my paper wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee holidays are looking great you gaiz ^^